I have three more days before I have to get back to the grindstone and I’m dreading it. My work has been a consuming passion for me over the past few years – I’ve put everything in, emotionally, mentally and financially. Like most business owners, I’ve been consumed by my work.
Something happened in the past three months and I feel like the intense passion I had has gone. I don’t want that to be the case, but it’s just don’t feel it anymore. I was hoping my solo trip to Bali, backed onto the Holiday season break would somehow rejuvenate my passion – but instead it has just re-awoken my wanderlust. Instead of dreaming of business expansion and compliance or operational issues, I’m imagining myself spending a week in Paris, or sleeping on an overnight train in Vietnam.
This has been worrying me over the past few days. Should I still be doing what I do if it’s not my biggest passion any longer? Am I burnt-out beyond recovery? Is the dread I feel about the big deadlines and issues I’m facing again in three days normal? Shouldn’t I love what I do passionately?
I’ve been contemplating these questions and I’ve come to the conclusion that loving my work intensely is not really necessary. In fact, it’s probably a bit sad if work is my main driver in life. I do like my work. I’m pretty good at what I do and if I had to find a 9-5 job, I’d probably chose to do what I’m doing. Most importantly, it gives me the financial ability to indulge in the people and things I truly love.
If Steve Jobs followed his greatest passion, he probably would have been a highly successful Zen Buddhist Teacher. Instead, he changed the world doing something he was excellent at and truly enjoyed doing.
So, maybe rediscovering my passion for travel is what I needed to re-balance my life. It has helped me refocus on the many other wonderful goals, dreams and passions that I have. Work is a means to an end – it is important that I like what I do, but it’s not necessary for me to be in love with my work anymore.
So, I have something to say to my business – “I’m sorry, Its not you, its me. I love you, but I’m not ‘in love’ with you anymore. I still want you in my life, but I need more now. I’m still committed to you, but I need to focus on other things in my life also. Let’s be really good friends – friends with benefits”