I’m sorry. It’s not you, its me….

I have three more days before I have to get back to the grindstone and I’m dreading it. My work has been a consuming passion for me over the past few years – I’ve put everything in, emotionally, mentally and financially. Like most business owners, I’ve been consumed by my work.

Something happened in the past three months and I feel like the intense passion I had has gone. I don’t want that to be the case, but it’s just don’t feel it anymore. I was hoping my solo trip to Bali, backed onto the Holiday season break would somehow rejuvenate my passion – but instead it has just re-awoken my wanderlust. Instead of dreaming of business expansion and compliance or operational issues, I’m imagining myself spending a week in Paris, or sleeping on an overnight train in Vietnam.

Paristulicotrainsapatulicoexpresstraintulicosapatrain-mgThis has been worrying me over the past few days. Should I still be doing what I do if it’s not my biggest passion any longer? Am I burnt-out beyond recovery? Is the dread I feel about the big deadlines and issues I’m facing again in three days normal? Shouldn’t I love what I do passionately?

I’ve been contemplating these questions and I’ve come to the conclusion that loving my work intensely is not really necessary. In fact, it’s probably a bit sad if work is my main driver in life. I do like my work. I’m pretty good at what I do and if I had to find a 9-5 job, I’d probably chose to do what I’m doing. Most importantly, it gives me the financial ability to indulge in the people and things I truly love.

If Steve Jobs followed his greatest passion, he probably would have been a highly successful Zen Buddhist Teacher. Instead, he changed the world doing something he was excellent at and truly enjoyed doing.

Interesting article on Steve Jobs

So, maybe rediscovering my passion for travel is what I needed to re-balance my life. It has helped me refocus on the many other wonderful goals, dreams and passions that I have. Work is a means to an end – it is important that I like what I do, but it’s not necessary for me to be in love with my work anymore.

So, I have something to say to my business – “I’m sorry, Its not you, its me. I love you, but I’m not ‘in love’ with you anymore. I still want you in my life, but I need more now. I’m still committed to you, but I need to focus on other things in my life also. Let’s be really good friends – friends with benefits”



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